I am Beautiful.

And you, unfortunalty, were blind.

I sat across the table from you at dinner, holding your hand and looking into your eyes. Yet, somehow, you managed to see right beyond me. Maybe there was a very beautiful girl sitting right behind me that got into your eye. Maybe it was a baseball game, or a basketball championship.

It doesn’t matter what it was, because the point is the same.

I am going to look deeply into your eyes, and say “Enough of You.”

I will get up from our little table, I will smooth my georgous dress that you didnt notice was brand new. I will march toward the door, leaving you to the beautiful girl at the next table and baseball game on TV.

I won’t cry when I get in the car. No, instead I will reapply my lipstick in the rear view mirror, and notice that my hair looks simply stunning tonight. I will tossel the end pieces over my ear, as I flip on the radio to a song that sings to my soul.

I will drive home in the darkness with a smile on my face not noticing or caring that you are not in the passenger seat with me. I will walk to my front door, not excited for a goodnight kiss, but instead I will fling open the front door, and kick off my new shoes.

I will turn on all the lights, and pull out my paints. I will set down with my favorite album jazzing in the background as I paint deep into the night. I will be artistic and fabulous. I will creative and stunning, stroking the depts of my heart across the canvas in blues and reds, in colors that you never knew existed inside of me, because you never bothered to look. And as it sit there allowing my heart to flow out of my brush, I will be smiling all the while.

And when my eyelids begin to droop with sleep, I will put on the sweetest, softest nighty I own. I will slip between my sheets alone, spreading out in my own bed, leaving no room for you. I will drift so peacefully into dreamland. And as I wind down to the end of my thoughts for that day, I cannot help but say to myself:

“I am beautiful. And you were blind. So that was enough of you.”